Everytime it comes, it seem to us that we have grown. Wiser? Maybe.. but for sure we have grown older and it is guaranteed.
This is actually a delayed blog which was supposed to be published before 2008 ends but due to my busy work schedule, it has to be postponed to... now!
Year 2008 has actually been a fine year. No doubt there has been highs and lows. Let us not talk about lows, because you and i don't want any negative energy to surge around. So highs it is.
For a typical bensasoun, every year starts with New Year celebration and ends with Christmas. Well that has been me for almost 19 years. Its not really that boring but i gotta say some changes maybe corky.
So this lucky 2008, well the typical bensasoun have been washed away with the newly coupled bensasoun coming into the scene. This year I have been given the opportunity to proudly and excitingly end year 2008 with 3 major celebrations in December which issssssssssss my sister's birthday, my dear's birthday and Christmas.
Unfortunately, due to my busy work schedule once again, I am unable to celebrate the usual Christmas and the long anticipated birthday of my dear. It should be decribed with a heavy SIGH!!!
Actually this year kinda sucked at its end when I have to work double shifts, day and night, with almost zero leisure and zero time for my own. Not even getting enough time for sleep. But it is a choice made by myself and I have no one else to blame rather than myself, in this case I hope that the monetary reward could compensate for all my losses.
HOWEVER, 1 thing in this world that cannot be compensated is my dear's birthday. We were supposed to be celebrating it before its exact date in KL but once again due to my busy work schedule blah blah blah.....
I kinda felt bad for myself and for my dear of course for not celebrating together her birthday, christmas and new year. There we have, missing 3 big occasions consecutively. Christmas and New Year sounds fine to me cause i getting paid double. But my dear's birthday is a grief sorrow. Of course i'm not the only one suffering from it.
This is a trauma that has been haunting me for several weeks. (kua jeong XD)
Really felt bad for not celebrating it with her face-to-face. Though we had some through-the-phone-countdown-celebration but my gut keep repeating in my head that it is not sufficient and not sincere. And..... I miss her BADLY!!
Sad case that for a typical ben to be given a chance to change into a not-typical ben.. I wasted my chance this year. But hey there's always next time right. I hope that there will be a next time if we can last that long. 1 years time is not an easy passage. Certainly, there will be highs and lows, but the main point is to maintain or to increment rather than to decline.
Therefore I would like to end this blog with a very sincere "I am SORRY!!! Please forgive me dear", and hopefully our love will keep us going long enough until the day that can we finally celebrate your birthday together. But if that's the case, then I guess we have to celebrate mine first before we do yours. Haha cheers! *i lubs u*
