Growing Up

Today, I realised something...
Something that I have not given thought to...
All of a sudden "it" came and struck me...
"It" was harsh...
But all I can do is to accept "it"...

Luckily that this time, I had a pillar to hold things from falling...
How long will this pillar hold on?
When will it finally give in, devastated into runes to protect me...
Is it worth for it to do so for me?
Will I disappoint it?
Will I disappoint myself?

Should I strengthen the pillar?
Or just let is waste into dust?
Or should I waste it for a purpose?
A purpose so great that waste dust turns into gold sand...
Just like Midas' touch?

Dear Lord, I have not been a faithful servant...
I did You wrong Lord...
Make me a better person...
Prosper me and my family with health...
A humble plead from Your rebellious servant...

I want to have a new life, a new style too perhaps...
Bring to me Glory... [just like Manchester United]
Provide me with might and will power...
Then I shall provide for my family...
And provide for You when I can...

Bring to me trouble as well...
As it makes me stronger and wiser...
As it lets me see good and evil...
So that I know which path to travel...
To finally... Grow Up!